Unfortunately, it’s not me.

I get a lot done in my day job and that’s great. I’m writing at least one article a day and managing my company’s social media stuff as well as sending out emails to publications and updating the website. Thirty hours a week I’m pretty darn busy.  (And that’s not even including the 90 minutes of travel time M-F)

Unfortunately, I’m not the kind of person that can have a busy day job and write like a fiend when I’m home. I do my best fandom and fiction work when I’m at work, sneaking to write a couple hundred words here and there on various projects and spiralling off into massive tweet-essays and conversations.

I plan so much at work and start so many new projects, but by the time I get home from work I’m so burnt out about staring at a computer screen. A few weeks ago, I think I had a day where I didn’t turn my computer on for four days. That’s so terrible.  I’m definitely burnt out at work. I’m probably burnt out at life. Tired all the time and with nothing much to show for it, I don’t really feel like doing anything.

And I don’t know how to get out of that rut.

I don’t know how to drag my motivation up from deep inside and crank out the 3000 words a day I know I can do if I wasn’t so tired and sad all the time.

I really wish I did.